Anyway, there was a missed call but not message. Trying to be safe, I didn't call while driving, but did manage to check my email at a red light (oops!). I had an email from Bair, too.
Sadly, it turned out to be just a notification that Jason's CPR certification will expire in November, so he needs to sign up for one of their free classes (pretty cool service), but not a referral.
I am realizing that as much as I told myself and others that there could very likely be a long wait due to our parameters, I really didn't believe it. Waiting is very hard for me (ergo very necessary, I know).
Realistically, we have two more significant disappointments coming up, too. Jason and I have joked that since no child arrived the first week of school, the call is bound to come while I'm away at our church's women's retreat this weekend. Or even more likely, while Jason is completely off the grid in the wilds of Ontario in a few weeks -- after all, that is when I got my job offer last year.
So, if waiting is what God has in store, I am likely to have a few disheartened days coming up...
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Aaaaaaack! Now I think God may just be having a little fun at my expense (not that He's not entitled, but seriously!).
I was just googling to find the verse that I was planning to post about making plans, blah, blah, blah when Jason IM'd and asked if I'd seen his text. I said, "No," because my phone is in the kitchen and has been since we got home from school about 40 minutes ago.
Well, 35 minutes ago, Bair called! Seriously! But it's another false alarm. It is a call for respite care for this weekend. Typically, I would love the opportunity, but I've already committed to leading a small group at the women's retreat this weekend, and while I would definitely drop those plans for a long term placement, I don't think it's the right thing to do for just a weekend. Sigh...
I surely hope that I am learning a lot and growing a lot through this, because the emotions are nearly overwhelming...
"Come now, you who say, 'Today or tomorrow we will go into such and such a town and spend a year there and trade and make a profit'--yet you do not know what tomorrow will bring. What is your life? For you are a mist that appears for a little time and then vanishes. Instead you ought to say, 'If the Lord wills, we will live and do this or that.'"
(James 4:13-15)
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