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I have always been a fiercely independent person.  For years I took pride in this, considering it a strength, but slowly I have begun to realize that like most other social strengths, it is rooted in my pride, not in God's sufficiency.

And in the past couple of days, my ongoing effort to loosen my grip on control and self-righteousness have born fruit.

Having the humility and grace to say yes to an offer of dinner from a sweet friend (and amazing chef!) for this evening has given me something to look forward to all day along, as well as the freedom of not having to even think about making dinner (yay!).

Accepting a $20 refund on the purchase of a used twin bed from a lady from church has given me the opportunity to share our journey and learn from her wisdom and experience.

And asking a close friend to see if she may have a hand-me-down swimsuit for J to take with her to camp may get me out of a shopping trip!

Yes, I am asking these three kind women to sacrifice time, energy and resources for me, all of which I could find within myself if I had to, and my pride struggles with that.  My selfish desire for control struggles with that.  But I truly believe we will all be better for it. The children's needs are being met, I am feeling less overwhelmed and very loved, and these wonderful women are doing God's work.

And whoever gives one of these little ones even a cup of cold water

because he is a disciple,

truly, I say to you,

he will by no means lose his reward.

(Matthew 10:42)